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3/2/09 02:59 am

Hey everyone, I have a pretty good idea that no one will actually see this post, but I plan to delete my livejournal and leave my frivolous blogging to twitter. Everyone who's on my friend's list, I have enjoyed reading about your lives a great deal and I just don't really feel like this is serving the purpose I hoped it would. I have a new blog on wordpress.com where I'll be posting sporadically.



If anyone on my flist has a twitter, I'd love to follow you.

Thanks everyone :)


8/7/08 09:43 am - Lost Cat

Our family cat went missing two days ago from our house off of Cliff Rd. and Nichols in Eagan. She's a declawed calico indoor cat with no license or collar. She's overweight and mildly asthmatic and has green eyes. She's the family baby and we're very very worried about her, so if anyone in the area sees her or has seen her, please give us a call.



4/29/08 04:02 pm



I don't even know guys. I just don't know. I am officially peeing myself. hey people magazine, way to get me excited against my will. Good job. Now I'll have to kill myself if the movie is bad.

12/29/07 02:19 am

For everyone whom I have disappeared off the face of the planet for, I was waiting to make an announcement once I knew what the hell was happening, but this recovery process turns out to be more complicated than I figured. I got my wisdom teeth taken out on the 26th and since then I have been in a perpetual state of sleeping and laying around. I have work on Sunday and I don't really know how fit I'm going to be for it because my mouth has been completely unpredictable.

I did get Looking For Alaska read cover to cover though, unfortunately it's not a really "up" sort of novel so it hasn't done anything for my mood. Which by the way, fluctuates from yay I'm so glad my teeth are out and it's over, to I never want to leave my bed again why didn't the dentist just put me out of my misery. I hate that my brain is stuffed full of drugs and I'm not clear headed enough to even write anything of worth.

All this time to work on things and it's wasted on staring at walls and sleeping through the better part of the day. I thought I was going to get so much done.

10/8/07 04:49 am

The Bridge Poem
by Donna Kate Rushin

I’ve had enough
I’m sick of seeing and touching
Both sides of things
Sick of being the damn bridge for everybody

Can talk to anybody
Without me

I explain my mother to my father
my father to my little sister
My little sister to my brother
my brother to the white feminists
The white feminists to the Black church folks
the Black church folks to the ex-hippies
the ex-hippies to the Black separatists
the Black separatists to the artists
the artists to my friends’ parents…

I’ve got to explain myself
To everybody

I do more translating
Than the Gawdamn U.N.

Forget it
I’m sick of it.

I’m sick of filling in your gaps

Sick of being your insurance against
the isolation of your self-imposed limitations

Sick of being the crazy at your holiday dinners

Sick of being the odd one at your Sunday Brunches

Sick of being the sole Black friend to 34 individual white people

Find another connection to the rest of the world
Find something else to make you legitimate
Find some other way to be political and hip

I will not be the bridge to your womanhood
Your manhood
Your humanness

I’m sick of reminding you not to
Close off too tight for too long

I’m sick of mediating with your worst self
On behalf of your better selves

I am sick
Of having to remind you
To breathe
Before you suffocate
Your own fool self

Forget it
Stretch or drown
Evolve or die

The bridge I must be
Is the bridge to my own power
I must translate
My own fears
My own weaknesses

I must be the bridge to nowhere
But my true self
And then
I will be useful

6/1/07 04:02 am

I don't get it guys. What's the big deal here? My understanding of the situation was that LJ was finally carrying through with stuff in the TOS and while doing that, went a little too general and accidentally suspended a bunch of fandom related and survivor journals. When I checked out the list I saw a bunch of communities that really should have been private to the members (age play? People under 18 don't need to stumble on that and hell, neither do I) and fandom communities with deviant sexual subjects (A lot of Harry Potter, which I can't blame LJ for finding questionable, I've got nothing against twincest, It's just not my thing).

But all this drama about freedom of speech that this stirred up is incredible if you ask me. I mean, maybe I don't have all the facts because I came late to the party and I was never effected by the mistake, but the fact remains...it was a mistake. I don't think Livejournal really grasps just how many of their subscribers are fandom people, or at least they didn't until this, and fanfiction is a fuzzy moral line, that's what disclaimers are for, right? I personally think impressionable young Harry Potter fans should be somewhat protected from Snarry fiction and Weasley incest. And there are plenty of communities out there that take respectable steps to keep their content from impressionable eyes and out of trouble with the TOS. Do I have an example? Yes I do, take a walk on over to darker_spike sometime and see how they run their operation. They have found a way to enjoy their explicit fanfic, slash pictures, and underage sex without incurring LJ's wrath or putting 13 year old Spike fans at risk.

I'm all for freedom of speech, but 'cmon guys, Livejournal has got to protect their asses too. They're the ones responsible for what goes on here, we're just anonymous contributors. I think they have a responsibility to uphold whatever moral values they see fit.

I think if you want to talk about freedom of speech, there are much better soapboxes out there.



^This comment thread provides a very level headed counterpoint to the insanity.

5/24/07 02:14 pm - Disney!

Beware: Vacation photos under the cut!Collapse )

5/9/07 03:23 am

I am home!

I have finished my finals, (I lied to my parents and told them they were all done so they would come get me and rescue me from the heat, then finished what I had left tonight and emailed them off) sufficiently harassed my cat, annoyed my mother by moving half my belongings back into my room, and watched Dane Cook give a lack luster performance on SNL with my sisters. (I think he was nervous) so today after I spend some quality time with my wonderful mattress I missed so much, I will be all about hanging out with my city-friends. (and getting my eyebrows done)

Much despair about being the only one of my sisters to be on summer vacation already. I had hoped that Bailey would haul me around all week because she QUIT HER JOB and has nothing better to do. Except it turns out she does have something better to do, she's going to school.

My high school guidance counselor is retiring after this year and us girls need to get the man a gift, or come visit him with a card or something. Mr. Vollmer made all three of our high school experiences better and loved to let me switch out of classes I didn't like and switch into study-halls with my girlfriends. Also, he looks vaguely like CSM. Not actually related to his counseling skills, but true nonetheless.


2/6/07 04:33 pm

I watched "The Truth" last night and it made me cry with joy and hate all at once. Mulder's intentions and the big classic unwinnable X-files fight is so beautiful, but...

when did Carter and company forget how to do exposition with dignity?

is it just me or does the "truth" get very...abstract all of a sudden?

Every time I see this episode I mourn for the lost time that could have been spent on a solid Gibson/Mulder dynamic. Their relationship is very suddenly revealed to us and very suddenly taken away. It makes me sad.

Um...how hot would Sam be strolling into that trial and getting all pissed and telling off the military guys? The answer- VERY HOT. I still believe in a completely buyable Samantha returns storyline.

....what? People bought Dogface as a....person. The X-files audience couldn't handle a Samantha who's been hidden away all these years to protect the truth?


1/30/07 02:51 pm

My creative writing teacher just read my work infront of the class!

I am so flattered and touched and excited and


I'm supposed to keep doing work I don't even know how I did the first time...

I just had a couple minutes bettween classes and had to emote, hehe. Going to post the story she read when I get home today, maybe some of you guys can tell me what should be done with it.


hee. resume what you were doing...

*goes to class*
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